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[[COPYPASTA FROM A POST I MADE YESTERDAY ON TUMBLR]]
[[I JUST FORGOT THAT I COULD POST STUFF HERE AS WELL THAT'S ALL]]
Story time!
It's been one full year today since I began watching MLP and so much has changed since then. It was the 8th when I started watching (if you don't include the time in April where I only watched 1 episode
) but it wasn't until the 11th when I got really hooked so hopefully I'll have something done for then, too.
But anyways, it's been 1 full year and many things have changed. To be honest, I was not in a good place at the time. Because of gender dysphoria, I was getting increasingly depressed, more-so than usual at the time. I wasn't seriously considering suicide at the time but I was becoming increasingly aware of how easy it would be. That really really scared me. I was afraid that real consideration of taking my life was sneaking up on me really fast.
Then, by a series of events that I could actually trace back since the summer of 2010, I found MLP. Friends of mine were saying how much they liked it for a while now and I knew they weren't the kind of people to like something just for the irony of it. There was a real reason why they liked it. So I checked it out. Yeah, I watched the first episode in April but I ended up watching the entirety of Stargate SG1 with my brother over the summer so it ended up slipping my mind until August.
So anyways, I watched several more episodes and I began to get hooked. Each night, I would watch several more episodes until I finished the first season. I have to tell ya, this show really moved me for many reasons. Mainly because it was a show for little girls. I felt like I could watch a show meant for a childhood I never had and I wouldn't be ostracized for liking it because of the growing fanbase. Not only that but it was cheerful, fun, and obviously well made. I would always cheer with delight when a musical number would come up because it just added to the beauty of the show.
What else was there to do now? Well after that, I really discovered the fandom. My first taste of the community was finding the Beatle Bronies via EqD. In fact, their song Can't You See was the first thing in this community that made me cry like no other. The power of friendship that the song portrayed resonated with me though I wouldn't really know the meaning of the song until much later.
After that, I was diving right into the community. Browsing ponychan, collecting a fuckton of pony macros, all that stuff. I even started getting into the music community, albeit slowly. The first musician I really took notice of was Jackle App. Even listening to his early stuff now instantly brings me back to this amazing time. I remember laying on my bed with my eyes closed as the sun shines on my face and I'd just be listening to Giggle at the Ghostly Ponyhouse Mix or Yay! Cupcakes! and I would just feel so relaxed.
By late September, I started drawing ponies. I wasn't very good but that was to be expected. I brushed off my old deviantart and uploaded my stuff there. I kept at it and got increasingly better. I was doing that pretty much non-stop for three months and got really good at it. December, however, I tried doing something different. I dowloaded FL Studio and tried out some stuff. Obviously, I wasn't good at that either. I also joined tumblr in december, too. (Honestly, the main reason why I joined was because I had a bit of a crush on Jackle)
December went by and January came. January 6th. My mom and I went to a clothing store to return a pair of gloves. Clothing stores are the worst. It was separated in half, girls clothes on the left and boys clothes on the right. And mirrors. One half of the store tempted me with things I couldn't have and the other mocked me with things I had to have while the mirrors stood there to remind me exactly what I was. This put me in a really deep depression for the rest of the day. I just couldn't shake it.
The next day arrived and it was a new pony episode. It was also bronycon. I stayed in my room the entire day watching the livestream of the event and it brought me so much euphoria. Watching Jackle during bronypalooza was just amazing. Everyone got up on stage and started dancing, it was so amazing. By the end, I had the urge to listen to his song Winter. And I listened to it over and over again. And I cried. Even now, I get very emotional when I listen to it. This was a driving force for my music. I wasn't going to make music just to try it out anymore, I wanted to make something that would make someone feel as happy as I feel whenever I listen to Winter.
Shortly after this huge boost in attitude, I came out to the internet world as trans. Before this, I kept my gender ambiguous. I would tell people I was female but I felt like I was just lying to people all the time and that wasn't good. So I came out as trans and stuff and my attitude just got better from there on.
As more time went on, I gained more and more friends. So many that I don't dare try to count them because I know I'll forget someone. I started to get involved with more stuff. I continued my art, my music, even became involved with MLP: Music is War and the 30 Minute Music Challenge. I've gotten so many people following me, too. 300 here on tumblr, 600 on deviantart, 100 on twitter, 60 on youtube (:<).
Not only that but I've had my work recognized by people who work on the show. Tara Strong and Steffan Andrews have both recognized my art and Will Anderson, who I've actually become friends with, has recognized my art and music.
But most importantly, I've got a boyfriend who loves me for me and doesn't care that I'm trans which is absolutely unbelievable and I love him for that. He makes me feel like myself and it's beyond amazing to be the 'girlfriend'. I really can't explain it but all in all, everything is great.
Looking back, things have changed for the better. I have fans, friends, a boyfriend, I'm out as trans online and have so many people supporting me, I've been recognized by people who work on the show, I've become friends with Will Anderson (somehow), and and things are just so fantastic for me.
Now I know EXACTLY what the song Can't You See means by "Friendship is truly magic".
You all mean so much to me, thank you for making this the best year of my life.
[[I JUST FORGOT THAT I COULD POST STUFF HERE AS WELL THAT'S ALL]]
Story time!
It's been one full year today since I began watching MLP and so much has changed since then. It was the 8th when I started watching (if you don't include the time in April where I only watched 1 episode
) but it wasn't until the 11th when I got really hooked so hopefully I'll have something done for then, too.But anyways, it's been 1 full year and many things have changed. To be honest, I was not in a good place at the time. Because of gender dysphoria, I was getting increasingly depressed, more-so than usual at the time. I wasn't seriously considering suicide at the time but I was becoming increasingly aware of how easy it would be. That really really scared me. I was afraid that real consideration of taking my life was sneaking up on me really fast.
Then, by a series of events that I could actually trace back since the summer of 2010, I found MLP. Friends of mine were saying how much they liked it for a while now and I knew they weren't the kind of people to like something just for the irony of it. There was a real reason why they liked it. So I checked it out. Yeah, I watched the first episode in April but I ended up watching the entirety of Stargate SG1 with my brother over the summer so it ended up slipping my mind until August.
So anyways, I watched several more episodes and I began to get hooked. Each night, I would watch several more episodes until I finished the first season. I have to tell ya, this show really moved me for many reasons. Mainly because it was a show for little girls. I felt like I could watch a show meant for a childhood I never had and I wouldn't be ostracized for liking it because of the growing fanbase. Not only that but it was cheerful, fun, and obviously well made. I would always cheer with delight when a musical number would come up because it just added to the beauty of the show.
What else was there to do now? Well after that, I really discovered the fandom. My first taste of the community was finding the Beatle Bronies via EqD. In fact, their song Can't You See was the first thing in this community that made me cry like no other. The power of friendship that the song portrayed resonated with me though I wouldn't really know the meaning of the song until much later.
After that, I was diving right into the community. Browsing ponychan, collecting a fuckton of pony macros, all that stuff. I even started getting into the music community, albeit slowly. The first musician I really took notice of was Jackle App. Even listening to his early stuff now instantly brings me back to this amazing time. I remember laying on my bed with my eyes closed as the sun shines on my face and I'd just be listening to Giggle at the Ghostly Ponyhouse Mix or Yay! Cupcakes! and I would just feel so relaxed.
By late September, I started drawing ponies. I wasn't very good but that was to be expected. I brushed off my old deviantart and uploaded my stuff there. I kept at it and got increasingly better. I was doing that pretty much non-stop for three months and got really good at it. December, however, I tried doing something different. I dowloaded FL Studio and tried out some stuff. Obviously, I wasn't good at that either. I also joined tumblr in december, too. (Honestly, the main reason why I joined was because I had a bit of a crush on Jackle)
December went by and January came. January 6th. My mom and I went to a clothing store to return a pair of gloves. Clothing stores are the worst. It was separated in half, girls clothes on the left and boys clothes on the right. And mirrors. One half of the store tempted me with things I couldn't have and the other mocked me with things I had to have while the mirrors stood there to remind me exactly what I was. This put me in a really deep depression for the rest of the day. I just couldn't shake it.
The next day arrived and it was a new pony episode. It was also bronycon. I stayed in my room the entire day watching the livestream of the event and it brought me so much euphoria. Watching Jackle during bronypalooza was just amazing. Everyone got up on stage and started dancing, it was so amazing. By the end, I had the urge to listen to his song Winter. And I listened to it over and over again. And I cried. Even now, I get very emotional when I listen to it. This was a driving force for my music. I wasn't going to make music just to try it out anymore, I wanted to make something that would make someone feel as happy as I feel whenever I listen to Winter.
Shortly after this huge boost in attitude, I came out to the internet world as trans. Before this, I kept my gender ambiguous. I would tell people I was female but I felt like I was just lying to people all the time and that wasn't good. So I came out as trans and stuff and my attitude just got better from there on.
As more time went on, I gained more and more friends. So many that I don't dare try to count them because I know I'll forget someone. I started to get involved with more stuff. I continued my art, my music, even became involved with MLP: Music is War and the 30 Minute Music Challenge. I've gotten so many people following me, too. 300 here on tumblr, 600 on deviantart, 100 on twitter, 60 on youtube (:<).
Not only that but I've had my work recognized by people who work on the show. Tara Strong and Steffan Andrews have both recognized my art and Will Anderson, who I've actually become friends with, has recognized my art and music.
But most importantly, I've got a boyfriend who loves me for me and doesn't care that I'm trans which is absolutely unbelievable and I love him for that. He makes me feel like myself and it's beyond amazing to be the 'girlfriend'. I really can't explain it but all in all, everything is great.
Looking back, things have changed for the better. I have fans, friends, a boyfriend, I'm out as trans online and have so many people supporting me, I've been recognized by people who work on the show, I've become friends with Will Anderson (somehow
), and and things are just so fantastic for me.Now I know EXACTLY what the song Can't You See means by "Friendship is truly magic".
You all mean so much to me, thank you for making this the best year of my life.
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Fanfic commissions, anypony?
1 min read
Sorry, not from me. I don't write fanfics.
HOWEVER, I do know somebody who is. Just have a look here.
HOWEVER, I do know somebody who is. Just have a look here.
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Commissions Closed
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As of today, commissions are now closed.
If you ordered a commission and haven't received it yet...
They will be sent as soon as I can make them.
If you ordered a commission and haven't received it yet...
They will be sent as soon as I can make them.
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CLOSED
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CLOSED
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OC Complex Design: 150 Points
Examples
OC Simple Design: 120 Points
Examples
Canon Character: 100 Points
+Background (Simple Only; hills, sky, mountains, etc.): + 50 Points
+Simple OC/Canon Character: +50 Points
+Complex OC: +80 Points
Cutie Mark: 50 Points
Examples
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WILL DO:
Mild Shipping (cuddling, hugging, kiss on the cheek)
Mild Violence (cuts, scrapes, and bruises at the most)
Non-ponies (Griffons, dragons, zebras, etc.)
WILL NOT DO:
Complex backgounds (only because I'm inexperienced)
Canon/OC shipping
Gore/Excessive Violence
Anthros/Humanizations
R34
If you have any questions, feel free to contact me. ;D
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Examples
OC Simple Design: 120 Points
Examples
Canon Character: 100 Points
+Background (Simple Only; hills, sky, mountains, etc.): + 50 Points
+Simple OC/Canon Character: +50 Points
+Complex OC: +80 Points
Cutie Mark: 50 Points
Examples
~~~~~~~~~~
WILL DO:
Mild Shipping (cuddling, hugging, kiss on the cheek)Mild Violence (cuts, scrapes, and bruises at the most)Non-ponies (Griffons, dragons, zebras, etc.)WILL NOT DO:
Complex backgounds (only because I'm inexperienced)Canon/OC shippingGore/Excessive ViolenceAnthros/HumanizationsR34If you have any questions, feel free to contact me. ;D
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New Tumblr!
1 min read
emkay-mlp.tumblr.com/
You can ask me stuff and follow me and whatever if you like.
If not, I'm cool with that, too. I'm not picky.
=3
You can ask me stuff and follow me and whatever if you like.
If not, I'm cool with that, too. I'm not picky.
=3
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